I’m so glad it is a new year! 2018 was great but it was just a lot of the same and I want to see some change in my life. Personal growth. I want to be better for myself, for God and the people I love so much. I am learning some things about myself. When I try to make changes I get defeated because if I don’t see instant change or if I fail even just a little I will give up. People say it takes 21 days to create a new habit. That is wonderful but 21 days seems like a long time to me. I know it’s not but if you are not self disciplined it is. If you have no staying power it is. I decided for 2019 I am going to make it easier for myself. I asked myself what can I do? Can I do something for 7 days? 5 days? Can I realistically do 5 days of trying something new that might improve my life? Yes I think I can.

I am going to do 5 days. If after 5 days I like it and I feel good I am going to go to 7 days and so on and so forth. 2 days at a time after the fifth day. Not to much commitment, right! I know I might sound like a 7 year old but honestly I am a 7 year old inside of a 47 year olds body. This is my life.

Today I am staying focused on God’s love for me. It seems like a good place to start. God said we are priceless and his children. I just want to lean into that for awhile. Let it soak in and fill me up.


Notes from Unshakable devotional by Christine Caine

Take your fears one by one and work through them with God. Don’t be ashamed of your fears just fear, trust and repeat.

Believe the truth of God’s word over the facts of your circumstances. Look to God and not at everything around you.

Nothing to Prove

These are notes from the book Nothing to Prove by Jennie Allen

I am not enough and I am done trying to be.

We are not God. We do not have all the answers, strength, wisdom or energy.

I am not enough and that is absolutely Ok.

God is proud of you. He is not surprised by your list of sins or mistakes or shortcomings. He forgives you all of it when you confess to him and he never places a label on you. Your are not your mistakes. You are just his child.

Your are free

These are notes from the book You are free by Rebekah Lyons

We are not made to keep up we are made to be free to be who we already are!

Our hearts will be restless until it rests in God.

Those who keep score in life just want to know they count.

When you work for an audience of one (God) you always count.

Am I good enough? Do I measure up? Are they proud of me?

I am tired of asking these questions.


Growth in our life comes from God not just from the effort we put forth. Do you talk to Jesus about your dreams and the things you want to achieve?

Do you have patience, trust and faith?


What is your favorite way to love others in Jesus’s name? Do you like to encourage people, cheer them on or give them money when they are struggling. I know it is something different for each of us.


How is Jesus calling you out into deeper waters? What is it that you know he is asking you to do but your to scared to even start?

What does the first very small step look like?

Is Jesus asking you to see something in your life in a different way?

Is he asking you to leave anything behind?


Ya’ll I made a budget a few months ago and now I am going to start using it!! I am not good with money. I will admit it. I don’t like this about myself but I am flawed. I am trying to do better. It is a process people! A Process!!

I do this a lot. I wake up and I talk to God about stuff before I even get out of bed. I am always requesting things of course. I mean I thank him for everything and then I request more things 🙂 I have been really confused about things for awhile now but I this is what I figured out. My purpose here on earth is to serve others as best I can and tell everyone about Jesus. So simple. When I am unsure about a decision I can always go back to my purpose. Is it in line with my purpose?

What is Not my job

  1. Judging
  2. Excluding
  3. Hate
  4. Anger
  5. Bitterness
  6. Revenge

All I have to do is love and include people.. all people…. ALL… not some, not just the ones I like, or the ones that think like me, or believe what I believe or anything else. ALL PEOPLE. Love and include and that’s it. Yes even the ones that have done you wrong. Love and include. That’s it.